The Miracle of the Shoes

The old adage of waiting for the other shoe to drop was one used by a bunch of us in an email support group years ago where, because of difficulties outside of our control, we seemed to get hit with crisis’s all too often without any warning.

In the last year or so I’ve been the beneficiary of quite a number of shoes. You’d think they would have to run out, or at least get to the slipper section over time, however with every shoe that drops, a new pair miraculously appears precariously positioned over my head, just high enough to give a good wallop when it too falls, and we are talking about good solid footwear.

Friday, July 24, 2009

OMG - I HAVE CANCER

Well it took 3 weeks, 2 hours and 23 minutes, but it finally hit me, I have cancer. I don't think it hit me this hard the first time. Long story short, in separating squabbling kitties, one bit me. Not a horrible bite, but it drew blood and for some reason it started a flood of tears that just didn't stop. And not just tears, but actually keening. After calling my husband to come home, I laid on the couch and just sobbed and sobbed. My two little doggies kept sticking their faces in my face trying to see what was wrong.

I guess it was a realization that I couldn't face before or it just needed a 'hand' to get the emotions flowing out and not stay bottled up. I don't know. But I do feel a little better today. It is still a hard concept to hold on to. With the wonderful new treatments today, most breast cancers can be considered cured, so as soon as you are diagnosed you can call yourself a cancer survivor. But if the bone biopsy on Monday shows metastases (like they expect it to) I will not be cured. It can be controlled, so it is not total doom and gloom, but it is a different mindset for me.

Just a thought, but every time you give to organizations that search for a cure, you are helping to cure me also. I have no doubt that research will continue to make advances in the treatment and cure for breast and other cancers, so if you can spare an extra few cents, donate to a cancer research organization of your choice. Also, early detection is still the best hope for anyone who gets cancer. For breast cancer, yearly mammograms and monthly breast checks are a must. Colo-rectal screenings and regular check ups are not just important, but could be life saving.

So, as my roller coaster ride creeps up towards another peek, I'll use this time to take a breath, take one day at a time and take care of myself! Why don't all of you join me in taking this weekend to stop for a minute and appreciate the little things, like the morning dew on the grass, a bird soaring above, a tiny ant struggling to carry a leaf, the antics of a pet and/or the embrace of a loved one. You will be amazed at how, even when you feel like the world is crashing down on you, you can find peace, laughter and love!

Jean
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